ANYWAY!
intake was rather shitty today, not even going to write it here. i had a mini binge (2 teaspoons of honey and a slice of cheese with thai sweet chilli sauce - yah, i binge on weird food) but my lunch was worse. me and my sister were at home so we went to Tesco and bought smiley faces and chicken D: they were so yummy, but it was like 600 calories just for that. daaaamn.
then i went to the gym, burnt about 350 calories and then did a half hour walk home. i also took 6 laxatives, same as yesterday, and yesterday i lost 2.5lbs. i know it's water weight, i'm not stupid. but i don't care. the numbers going down, and that's what i need to see right now. so yeah, i'm a little peeved off, but i think i can handle it with cutting. i haven't cut in a loooong time (over two months i think? =D)
my mum totally pisses me off though. she came home from work and this was our conversation.
her: did you revise today?
me: yeah (this was actually true)
her: how much?
me: about 4 or 5 hours? (again, true)
her: *disappointed sigh*
me: what's up now?
her: do you want to pass your exams or not? all you seem to do is sit on your arse.
me: i did 5 hours revision!
her: when I was your age, i did about 10 hours a day, for weeks before
me: okay, and i don't?
her: you're going to fail emma
me: i have one gcse mother. it is not going to take me 1000 hours revision to learn it :| i do 100x more revision than anybody else i know, and you're still pushing me harder. what do you want from me?
her: for you to pass your gcse's.
eugh, i could have killed her. she seriously screws around my brain :|
love you all,
Emma xxxxx
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