Monday, 20 December 2010

allow me to introduce myself :)

hello there!

i'm emma, and i'm a fifteen year old girl who lives in England. i'm in year 10, and am studying for my gcse's.

thirteen fast facts!

one. i have had an eating disorder for the past 2.5 years.
two. i don't know what ED i have. i binge, purge, starve, you name it.
three. i hate labels.
four. i have also suffered depression and self harm for 3 years.
five. i care too much about what others think of me.
six. i play guitar and piano, as well as singing and writing my own songs.
seven. i hope to someday become a successful singer/songwriter.
eight. taylor swift is my musical inspiration.
nine. i have OCD, which leads me to do lots of weird things.
ten. one of these is breathing out when i walk past a bin, otherwise the smell contaminates me.
eleven. i am quite clever and a perfectionist, and think this is why i got an eating disorder.
twelve. i also blame my mum.
thirteen. thirteen is my lucky number :)



"no matter where you run, you're only gonna end up running into yourself"


i am a dancer; modern, disco, tap and ballet. i love all styles of dance, but I feel like it's a dead end for me because i'm too fat to be a dancer. have you ever seen a fat dancer?
i'm on pointe, but i hate it because i can't do it and everyone else in my class can, and i blame that on how fat i am.

i have tried self-recovery three times, but i always relapse.


so now i've given up. im just listening to my eating disorder from now on, and doing whatever it wants me to do.



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