i only tok 5 fucking pills anyway. i can't even find the nerves to fucking kill myself. because i want to. we had to take our cardigans off today at dance. it was just me + leotard +tights = very very fat. i felt disgusting, i kept messing everything up because i as just thinking about how fat and disgusting i looked. ew.
i just want to withdraw from food entirely. i don't want to eat it, i don't to exercise, i don't want to care anymore.
I completely agree! I wish I could stop caring, but everytime my head tells me to stop caring a much MUCH larger part of my head screams at me that I suck.. so I know how you feel.
ReplyDeletestay strong, you can do it!
I'm here for you if you need to talk.
I have yahoo messenger and email as well.
lemme know!
<3 Jess
I watched my best friend kill herself. Everyone on PT has become like my family. I wouldn't like a family member gone too.... I'm here if you need me.
ReplyDeleteEmma, you are absolutely beautiful. No matter what your weight is. Your worth is immeasurable -- it can't be defined by a number.
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