lol.

i only tok 5 fucking pills anyway. i can't even find the nerves to fucking kill myself. because i want to. we had to take our cardigans off today at dance. it was just me + leotard +tights = very very fat. i felt disgusting, i kept messing everything up because i as just thinking about how fat and disgusting i looked. ew.

i just want to withdraw from food entirely. i don't want to eat it, i don't to exercise, i don't want to care anymore.

bye.

erm yeah.

i can't do this anymore, i really can't. i've taken 4 paracetamol. i'm going to take more. i don't want to die, i just want it all to stop for a while. i feel disgusting, i am disgusting. i'm purging 20 times a fucking day. i can't do this. shit.

i don't want to die, i just want it to stop. what if i take too many and i die? will i care? shit. shit. shit.